I received a disturbing email this morning from a CHEESE reader, informing me there was some kind of bizarre coup circling around the INNERDNETS about me...OK, maybe not a *coup d'etat* because that would imply some level of importance! More like strange and bold lies by a person or persons (no identities were provided, lest I would NOT have to address this publicly on a blog and could simply contact the culprits directly!) regarding who and what they "think" I am.
First, let me preface this post with my belief: "The Internet is an unusually bizarre and complicated social network system."
There. I said it. And I fully believe it. The Internet and modern technology has replaced the most simple of human connections...direct contact...being able to look into the eyes of another...to touch their hand, see their facial expressions, and hear the intonations of their words. There is a VAST communication void that has been established on the Internet in our age of blogging, email, and *Instant Messaging*...it may be *instant* to type to places across the globe, but we lose some of the basic fundamentals of connecting with another. This is why our court system here in the States continues to allow face to face contact with one's accuser and with a jury of our peers! When THAT fundamental is lost in our courts, I think we might as well ALL pack our bags for prison...
So, back to addressing *freaks and weirdo's*...
The CHEESE reader who emailed me was concerned that someone (who I will refer to as *freaks and weirdo's*, since I don't KNOW who they are or if there is more than one!) had informed them I was presenting a false identity on one of the Social Network Pages (which shall remain nameless to protect the identity of my "informant"...really getting into deep cyber espionage here! LOL) and I was "calling for" people with MS to join me in something, which is not clear what that "something" is/was. WOOT?
OK...I'm only going to say this once to the *freaks and weirdo's* in question:
GET A FRICKIN' LIFE SO YOU HAVE LESS TIME TO SPREAD YOUR ANONYMOUS AND ILL INFORMED CRAP AROUND.
What you see is what you get here on CHEESE (and any OTHER website/social page/in person contact)...do I SHARE my full, real name with you here? NO. Because I am keenly aware there are already too many *FREAKS AND WEIRDO'S* out there in the world who have way too much time on their hands to GOOGLE me (but it still fascinates me you would even care)! Just accept it...unless suffering from a rare form of dementia and inhibition issues causing unknowing self-disclosure, you will NEVER be privy to my full name, address, date of birth, social security number, etc., or any other direct, identifying information...because I enjoy what few ounces of privacy still exist in my life and my government. So, since you (*freaks and weirdo's*) seem to think I am using a FALSE identity on another drab social page, I'm curious who/what you think my REAL/CURRENT identity IS...since you don't actually KNOW it after all? Unless, of course, you are a direct contact friend who reads CHEESE (and I emphasize the word *friend* there), who wouldn't bother emailing an Internet friend of mine with blatant lies anyway...seriously, what's WRONG with you?
Ooo! Ooo! Let me address that last question I pose...because I think it's important and, since I DO work in psychiatry (no, you don't exactly KNOW my educational background, direct employer, or the functions of my job...I've never disclosed those minute details of my life to you!), I feel qualified to address that question directly.
What I am extrapolating (in my humble, yet educated opinion) from this information about you (*freaks and weirdo's*) is this: You have many fears. You are most likely a person or persons who try to project themselves into the world as sophisticated, well-grounded, secure, and knowing, but this is a facade...deep inside, you feel inadequate in many areas of your life, thus resorting to attempts at casting doubt on others via malicious gossip (why yes, in fact I DO know a bit about behavioral profiling!). Given the fact you presumably have MS yourself (otherwise I can assume you would NEVER have read this poorly written and blathering blog), most likely sets you up to feel vulnerable, both physically and mental. You therefore, attempt to compensate for this vulnerability via unhealthy means to ease your own fears. Why do I think THAT? Because only a fearful person responds in this manner...whether it is fear of not being good enough, not being important, not being the center of attention, etc. THESE are the reasons someone...anyone...even *freaks and weirdo's*...participate in malicious gossip. It is an attempt to decrease their OWN fear(s) by casting doubt or dismantling another, thereby temporarily feeling a sense of importance or dominance.
I am highly intrigued ANYONE would choose such a low life as myself to stir malicious gossip around! Frankly, this only serves to inflate my already enormous ego. LOL The fact anyone (*freaks and weirdo's*) feels a need to dismantle or cast doubt about me in ANY way, whether in person or on the Internet, causes raucous laughter to erupt in my belly. None of us in this life are really THAT important...BRAINCHEESE included. And the notion I would be "calling for" people with MS to join me in ANYTHING (I'm still curious what this "anything" might be? World domination?!?) makes me laugh until I want to wet my pants!!! This is a blog on the Internet...I write about MS, my life WITH the disease, and an assortment of my own opinions/experiences...PUT YOUR HAND ON THE MOUSE AND CLICK TO ANOTHER PAGE NOW IF YOU ARE BECOMING TOO MESMERIZED TO HAVE YOUR OWN LIFE OR OPINION SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU ARE READING THIS BLOG...DO IT! Seriously...do it...go away.
If you are familiar with the psychological term, "triangulation", you will fully understand WHY I find your behaviors so dysfunctional, dear *freaks and weirdo's*. My email address is right there on the left-hand side of this blog...if you have questions/comments/concerns about me (and really WANT answers rather than a simple desire to make yourself feel better temporarily via malicious gossip), the door is open right there to email me directly. No, I won't disclose intimate details to you about my life or identity...but it's still OK to HAVE THE BRASS GONADS TO ASK ME DIRECTLY...and leave my friends and other contacts out of your silly mind play. Anyone who has ever emailed me knows I WILL always respond...eventually...and hopefully with enough integrity and insight to leave you feeling comfortable to email me again if you choose to. So please, have the maturity to pose your questions directly rather than triangulating dysfunctionally between an unsuspecting friend and I. It's the *right* thing to do...and since blogging an entire post about YOU is the only way I have to reach out and TOUCH you, I hope you (*freaks and weirdo's*) will heed my advice so we may all lay this issue to rest.
Whatever the alleged "issue" was in the first place! I'm STILL trying to figure THAT one out...