If anyone finds a diamond earring laying around, it's mine. Yep...as is par for my course, somehow today of all days, one of my diamond earrings leaped from my earlobe and mysteriously disappeared without leaving a forwarding address. It's quite odd, too. Because just this weekend, I was looking in my medicine cabinet (where I keep all my "single" earring collections I have created over the past 5 years) and thinking to myself, "it may be time to go buy myself a pair of nice earring posts". Little did I know this was a PREMONITION!
It's not that the earring was THAT expensive...well, actually I don't know the cost because they were a gift from a former life. But the earrings were the last tangible items that remained from my former life, having had ALL of my jewelry stolen in a home invasion in 2003. I decided after that robbery (which left me with only the jewelry I had on at the time of the burglary) that it was silly to keep any emotional attachment to things (my mother and grandmother's wedding rings, etc., were stolen as well as jewelry of my deceased sister). Somehow, however, I had managed to keep THIS set of earrings intact and one of the few sets of earrings I have worn for 5 years.
Letting go of relationships is never easy...and letting go of the THINGS that remind us of better times in those relationships is even harder. I imagine on some level, I have worn these earrings as a final thread of attachment to the memory of those relationship times. I know this, because somehow my heart "hurts" with the acceptance I'm not going to find the mate earring...it is gone. And it is time to let it go.
Perhaps I will find the courage this holiday season to buy MYSELF a nice pair of earrings...from me to me. As a sign and symbol of the relationship I have been forming with myself over the past 4 years. I think THIS pair will come with those "screw back" posts or something I can simply STAPLE to my earlobe without worry of loss again! Sounds kind of painful and bloody, but it may well be worth the physical discomfort to keep myself out of the emotional discomfort and loss I am feeling now...